EMEN4life

……. I don’t even know where to start really. So i think imma just keep it at that.

I can’t remeber the last time I had sex. I think its a great thing. Sex is so meaningful. To me it’s like love. I can’t just have sex with a person without no feelings. I guess being alone for almost three years its a great thing for me. Made realize that Sex is apart of love. I guess my mom was right. There comes a time and place when you wake up and realize what lie is about. I am glad that I realize that i want to have sexytime with the person i love.

I need a lifestyle. I want a six pac. So of yesterday I started taking pills and a protein drink. I am going to try this out for two weeks maybe three to see if my body changes. I need to eat more and workout harder. I need to start taking pic everyday of my body for the next two weeks. After I try this I going to start eatting healthy foods for now on.

It’s about 12:17pm. I just got done cooking and eating. I am thinking if i want to run with my shirt off today.  Over here in Portland, Oregon USA, we don’t get sun too much here. We are known as the “rainy city.” I just feel good about my body now. I never seen my body so damn slim. It’s different now waking up and not seeing a big fat belly. But I dont want ppl to think I’m a show off, cuz that’s not where I am coming from. Than again, why should I care? right! well, at 1:00pm i will start my jog. =D

The last few weeks for me has been hard trying to sleep. I know why but i think my nights are about to get better. And sleeping wont be so hard. Miss you buddy.

It’s sooo hard making sure i get everything paid on time or getting things done. I need to buy lots of things for my new place and pay bill and make money and ect…. man. I need help or just someone to vent to.

i am at osu with Jin yang. I am in his class. haha. good shit. today we are just learning about cell signaling. its 10 in the morning.